Writing as a Meditation ~ Day 22

October 22nd

“The past is always tense, the future perfect.” ― Zadie Smith

As I wake up this morning I am feeling exhausted but accomplished. Today I will be delivering a keynote at Hofstra University about pressures, family expectations, hopes and dreams… failure and perseverance… there is so much I am feeling. I am proud of this work that I do. It is important that we recognize and acknowledge and celebrate the good works we put out into the world.

How incredibly blessed am I? As I begin this morning I am calling forth energy… I am looking forward to speaking with the students and staff who have read my memoir. I feel strong! I feel ready! I feel really grounded in myself today. There is a focus and confidence I am walking with today that makes this pep in my step feel firm… prepared.

I am thinking about this amazing woman who is reading my work… she is such a genuine soul and devours words in a matter of minutes… she could not believe all that I had gone through… my past… it has been a long time since I have spoken to someone about my memoir. It was as if I wrote it and then never wanted to look at it again. Something changed for me after writing that book. I was exposed. A lot of my story was out there for the world to see… for the world to judge…

do overs

“My past is everything I failed to be.” ― Fernando Pessoa, The Book of Disquiet

My past has given me… my past has given me material to write… my past has prepared me for battle… my past has blessed me more than I will ever really know… my past is the very reason why I strive the way I do… my past has given me an arsenal to go up against my enemies and recognize who is in my corner… my past has tested me and challenged me… my past is why I have never stopped dreaming… I write my past so that my daughter has a road map… not her road map… but a road map back to me… My dreams came true because of my hard work yes… but my dreams have come true because of Courtney… and today I am so grateful… my past gave me access to my soul.

My intention for today… is to give all of me… my intention for today is to be honest and vulnerable. My intention for today is to connect… to soul connect with everyone in the audience. I want every single person in that room to feel me… to leave feeling something… for my story to feel like their story… my intention for today is have fun! My intention for today is to be of service! And so it is…

stories

Today’s prompts:

As I wake up this morning… (Set timer for 5 minutes)

I am thinking about… (Set timer for 5 minutes)

My past has given me… (Set timer for 5 minutes)

My intention for today… (Set timer for 5 minutes)

10 minute – “1 morning can change someone’s life…” life altering… life changing event… choice they made… life changing choice…

30 minute… tying up loose ends…

One thought on “Writing as a Meditation ~ Day 22

  1. Reblogged this on Alicia Anabel Santos and commented:

    My past has given me… my past has given me material to write… my past has prepared me for battle… my past has blessed me more than I will ever really know… my past is the very reason why I strive the way I do… my past has given me an arsenal to go up against my enemies and recognize who is in my corner… my past has tested me and challenged me… my past is why I have never stopped dreaming… I write my past so that my daughter has a road map… not her road map… but a road map back to me… My dreams came true because of my hard work yes… but my dreams have come true because of Courtney… and today I am so grateful… my past gave me access to my soul. – cont. reading –

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