Day 3 ~ Team selection, Today I met and Reflection
Today more people have joined the expedition and the energy is incredible. There are climbers and hikers of all levels. Many teams climb Makalu for sport, others climb these mountains as a yearly spiritual experience. Today I met a 70 year old woman who is the leader of the Hindu team, a group of seven women who have been hiking and climbing together for many years. She shared her story at dinner tonight, telling us that she comes yearly ever since her 30th birthday. Vedanti’s body is amazing she’s in better shape than me. She has four daughters none of which have ever climbed with her—she shared stories about what she has learned about herself. She told me that in life – it doesn’t necessarily get easier you just become better equipped to deal with all that life throws at you. She told me that climbing for her is like going to church. As she climbs she reflects on the past year and all that she has experienced. That with every breath and every step she releases everything and everyone that doesn’t serve her. She releases every bad experience or ill word spoken and by the time she reaches the top she has let go of everything. That at the top she finally feels lighter. All the weight is no longer carried when she arrives. When she reaches Makalu’s peak she arrives to a place of complete peace, gratitude, understanding, compassion, forgiveness and love and at that very moment this is the moment she chooses to carry with her into the next year. When she arrives to the top of Makalu this is when she says HAPPY NEW YEAR!
She is such an inspiration this beautiful Hindi woman with long white braided hair.
WOW! The people I have met so far are absolutely amazing. There are so many stories like hers and I am just taking all of it in and tomorrow is THE DAY… tomorrow we arrive to the bottom of the mountain and begin.
We spent the day checking our equipment and sharing stories about why we decided to leave all of the comforts of home and all those we love. Some people shared their desperate need to get away, to get away from their lives. I connected to this woman Laura who shared that she felt like her life had no purpose, that she felt empty and without meaning and she wanted and needed to prove to herself that she could do this. There was a sense of urgency for her to complete this climb. This journey was about shutting down all of those external voices shitting all over her dreams. I felt all that she shared at my core… I felt like she was reflecting back to me everything I was feeling and my reasons for being on this journey. There is a part of me that needed to run away because I am sick of waiting. I am so tired of patiently waiting, and praying, and hoping and holding onto my faith and deep desires… it’s no longer enough. I need something else. Something larger to believe in. something to remind me of why I am here and what I am called to do. I needed to take action and it needed to be something drastic. And a month away is just what I need. And what I need most is to do this ALONE! But as I look up at these Himalayan’s I take a deep breath and pray that I can do this… SHIT! What have I signed on for?
Creator, Mother, Father God, mis Orishas, mis guias espirituales, mi angeles de la guardia, mis muertos… I need you with me now more than ever, stay with me, clear the way for me, breathe into me everything that I need. Ready my heart and keep me strong. Fill me with love. Walk ahead of me clearing the path of all obstructions. Thank you for this day. Protect me and guide me always. Namaste ~ Aché ~ and so it is.
Oh yeah! I forgot to share… tonight when all the new climbers were asked to pick teams from a lottery I lucked out and landed the exact team I wanted to walk with. I am on Vedanti’s team, the Warriors of Light!