Yamuna, our expert Sherpa, and my assigned partner. We each have one person who travels with us at all times and because I am the most amateur climber, sort of the virgin with only two other climbs under my belt she is who I have spent the most time with. Yamuna is also the woman who has taught me the most.
“Stay close!!!” This was her daily message to me. I was to always stay close…
As we sat by the fire last night we talked about rejection. “Rejection is part of the process Alicia. There are people who submit and get everything they put out published… everything they send out gets accepted. How wonderful this is for them! But have you ever considered or wondered, is there something to this? What is it that they are doing? What is it that they believe about themselves? What if you just worked? What if you just kept creating? What if you just finished what you started? What if you just took more risks and submitted even when you feel you aren’t good enough or qualified? There is something to it! Its called DOING IT!”
What if I just write it? What if I stopped obsessing over it and trusted that my heart is in the right place and that the words will come? Where do I see myself? Where am I standing? What do I look like? What am I wearing? What do I see myself accomplishing? What do I see myself having? What do I need? What am I calling forth?
I am not in the clothes that I am wearing. I see myself as more than enough? That mediocre life is history!!! I am writing a new story!
What is it that people who are really going for it believe about themselves?
THEY ARE GREAT
THEY ARE ENOUGH
THEY ARE WORTHY
THEY DESERVE IT
THEY PUSH PAST IT
THEY GO FOR IT NO MATTER WHAT
Saying your doing something is not the same as actually doing something!
Everyday it’s thinking about it…
Everyday it’s moving towards it…
Everyday it’s about not thinking I’m done even when I am done. I will move on to the next thing.
What is the life I want? What is the more I want? I want that feeling that came with the first day I got an article, my first feature accepted by an editor. I remember how hard I worked on that essay. It was thousands of words long, over 30 pages cut down to three. I was sitting in front of that computer screen so proud of having over 2,000 words. I edited until it was almost perfect, then I edited some more. I had the honor of having an editor from BusinessWeek be so kind as to read my work and offer me feedback.
That moment before I hit send to the magazine I said a prayer… it was a prayer of gratitude. I prayed that my work would be received with all the love I’d written it. While I cried at that momentous occasion, I prayed a huge thank you for the opportunity and blessing I would be receiving. I hit send and I have not stopped going for it! This is what I am thinking about today. All I still have left to do.
And so it is. Namaste. Aché
With all my love,