Finally exposed.. I took all of my clothes and stood naked on the mountain. I was completely exposed. I stood in the fullness of me. I stood in the completeness of me. I stood in all of me. I stood in the nothingness of me. I stood in the emptiness of me. I stood in… Continue reading Nepal Trip ~ Day 40: What do you see?
She came to me in my dreams. They always come in my dreams. She was mute. Her eyes carried so much pain in them. I saw sadness, fear, disappointment, despair, grief, confusion and questioning. In her eyes she carried all of her pain... all of her questions… so many questions... She questions who she is… Continue reading Nepal Trip ~ Day 39: Lost Little Girl… the pressure
My first thought today as I woke was I’m not ready to leave yet. It’s too soon… and the questions that have risen: Will you come as you are? And… Am I doing things from my core? Today I went for a walk with Talika. We sat on the grass and she shared her life… Continue reading Nepal Trip ~ Day 38: Not ready to leave! At my core…
Today I arrived at the bottom of Makalu! This moment is everything. I am filled with mixed emotions. I have been with these women for over a month. They have shared their life stories with me. They have shared their pain. They have shared their reasons for making this trek. Today we sat around our… Continue reading Nepal Trip ~ Day 37: Arriving is bittersweet!
I woke up today thinking about a conversation I had with an immigrant cab driver. His words ringing in my ears on this mountain, "A veces uno rechaza lo que le manden..." he said. Me: "Como asi?" Him: "Yo podia hacer dos cosas..." Me: "Cuales cosas?" Him: "Muralista o doctor." Me: "Porque no lo hiciste?"… Continue reading Nepal Trip ~ Day 36: He’s not OK! It’s never too late!
I know what it is to struggle and live in poverty and I am absolutely guilty of living beyond my means. There was a time I would brag about being able to make $20 last me two weeks. Those were happy times in my life. I was no longer working in Corporate America. I was… Continue reading Nepal Trip ~ Day 35: What a full refrigerator says about you…
I'm getting rid of excess. I'm getting rid of what I no longer need. I'm making room for what I want. Today I am unpacking. I am unpacking the excess weight of everything I have brought on this journey. There is so much I've brought with me that no longer serves me. Did I really… Continue reading Nepal Trip ~ Day 34: Time to Unpack!
Silence in solitude! I am so tired of these women and their stories. They are constantly telling me what I SHOULD be doing… how I SHOULD be acting… how I SHOULD be praying… what I SHOULD be asking for…. exactly how I SHOULD go about getting the things that I want… and what I SHOULD… Continue reading Nepal Trip ~ Day 32: A woman lost! She’s lost her faith and has NO hope!
I was reminded today that my resolution, intention and mantra for 2015 was that I would finally let go of poverty! Finally letting go of poverty… How do we define poverty? For most of us we have come to understand it as a circumstance that only a certain demographic lives under. Living in poverty means… Continue reading Nepal Trip ~ Day 31 The Paycheck-to-Paycheck Club!
When you use spirituality to suppress what you you're feeling, experiencing stillness and hiding behind yoga and prayer not to feel it, not to see it, not to relive it again like I do there are moments where you decide to STOP that shit... and allow ourselves to feel what we are feeling. I have… Continue reading Nepal Trip ~ Day 28: When Anger is OK!